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Thursday, October 14, 2004
not enough sleep?



Don't worry...

SEM BREAK NA!!


Posted at 12:32 pm by barbie
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Monday, September 13, 2004
Jurassic Roars Again!!!

       

ROAR!!!



What the night can do...

 

... To Makat...


Happy Birthday Gsel!!!!!!


Posted at 09:26 pm by barbie
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Saturday, September 04, 2004
one bum and trying hard day

yesterday, i woke up early, the usual morning routine, and then drove all the way to UP just to attend our boring Nat Sci 2 class. i was having second thoughts if we have a class or not because our prof was so unorganized in her way of speaking and teaching (really, i can't imagine how she became a professor especially in a Biology subject!) so we attended still.

and so, we woke up early.. FOR NOTHING! we had no class, and guess what? we also have no class in English 10 because we are given this week to finish our Concept Paper.. that we know thanks to our responsible and approachable professor (argh!! i hate out Nat Sci/Bio prof!!!).

so anyway, gelai, camille, arlene, fleur and i just stayed at CS canteen doing our own businesses (gelai reading arlene's phone, camille and arlene reviewing for Kas 2 class, fleur annoying arlene, and me reading the book i bought last thursday - eleven minutes). that lasted for an hour and 30 minutes.

after that, i drove them to their own classes and when i drove camille to the gym, i discovered they are still allowing students to sign up for ACLE (Alternative C_______ Learning Experience????? not sure). anyway, our math professor said that if we attended any of the 'lessons' in ACLE, we would get plus 15 points that i really badly need!! why? my average of the 1st 3 teacher exams and midterm is 76%.. shit..

anyway, guess what i signed up to?? THE ULTIMATE FRISBEE!! yeah! i'm now into trying new sports (like my PE archery) and i'm really interested in learning this at least the basics because this is just a one day affair.

after dropping them to their respective classes, i decided to go to BigR to study and type at our shop so that i wouldn't spend a penny (as compared to staying in katip) and so that i wouldn't die of boredom (as compared to staying in any lib in UP).

i passed by BPI in katip to deposit my allowance (i'm trying to save now) and when i was on the road after depositing, there was a really heavy traffic again because of ateneo (hehehe).. so i decided to go back to UP and stay at CS lib and yes, i was bored.. i didn't do the concept paper, i just read eleven minutes to pass the time and then went to my math 17 class which was a relief because at last!!! i have a class!! poor gelai, the whole day she was in UP yet she had no class in any of her 3 subjects that day..

after my class, i picked up yen at Mcdo katip and we went back to UP to jog around the Acad oval which was 2.2 kilometers! i'm really out of shape and i really wanted to try that. although i wasn't ready to jog with a runner! yep! yen is a runner.. and i decided not to follow her pace and just did mine. eventually, after some time, i saw yen already waiting for me from where we started..

after running (at least jogging for me), we went to the sunken garden and decided to play soccer for a while. yen and i joined this soccer org in UP together with sherry and we just practiced for our 'training' later this afternoon.

(ATTENTION: to all those who are interested in joining, i would like to reiterate, this is open to eveyone including Non-UP students! c'mon! may you be an expert or a beginner or you're just curious on how to play the game, join us! promise! ang saya!)

we decided to walk now around the acad oval so as to relax our tired legs and just appreciate the beauty of surroundings. again, i don't know what i'm getting myself into! yen started preaching about the monocots and dicots and on how to determine the ages of trees by just looking at the circles of the trunks etc (hehe! peace yen!) i still had fun plus i learned a lot!

we eventually went home, i ate a light dinner, took a bath, watched TV, tried doing some school stuff although ate needed the PC so i just slept and there!

one bum morning turned out to be a tiring and trying hard afternoon for me.. hehe! i had fun though..


Walking                                                 Goal                                                Running   

Posted at 09:58 am by barbie
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Sunday, August 29, 2004
some of the few reasons to like sundays

  

It's a Manas Day!!

 

  

Day Out with Friends!

 

  

Afternoon Jammin'! (Well, actually listening to them play!)

i hate sundays, really.. it's a day where i normally stay in my house by myself, thinking of the schoolwork to do for the next day (bummer!!).. it's a good thing it's different this sunday.. now i have a few reasons to like this day! =)

Posted at 06:15 pm by barbie
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Saturday, August 28, 2004
movies

just this afternoon i've watched another movie.. well, you see i've grown to become a movie freak (which, i just want to add, is not bad at all) and i've watched almost every movie there is that are shown.. at least those that i think are worth my money..

i admire movies, i critique them and i've got a lot to say about them.. some made me think, some were easy to understand yet were fond to watch, while some were unoriginal and very predictable..

but that's not entirely my point in creating this entry..

my point is, these past movies that i've watched and mostly the movies that are shown and that have been shown always portray a happy ending.

yeah, it's fun to live and imagine your own fairy tales that everything will bend the way you want it to.. but it doesn't work that way.. reality is, things don't always end up happy..

i know we make our own 'happy endings' although what i've observed in these movies is that you always get everything you want..

i'm not saying movies should show bad endings (or maybe sometimes they should) but at least show the viewers what reality means, that life doesn't always spoonfeed us with everything we need.

movies have grown so idealistic and that shouldn't be. although the good part of this is that they give hope in getting this 'special' something.

nonetheless, i think movies should illustrate the reality, where every person can relate to..

call me pathetic but i think this is really one flaw of the movie industry..

i may have only realized this now because i'm one of those people who have observed the unfairness of life and who is currently in search of that happy ending..

yeah, i'm pathetic but what the heck..

Posted at 08:15 pm by barbie
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Tuesday, August 24, 2004
when to stop..

"Our dreams are our own, and only we can know the effort required to keep them alive."


"There are some things in life that are worth fighting for to the end."

-- Paulo Coehlo "By The River Piedra I Sat Down And Wept"


Posted at 07:36 pm by barbie
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tug of war

this day is full of emotional stress.. and physical too..

after one year of rest, here i go again engaging to the one i really love - SPORTS!

i joined an organization in UP (UP Football Club Sikad), which is obviously all about soccer. anyone's invited whether you're good at it or not or you're just curious on how to play the game. even non-UP students can join this org so if anyone's interested, just contact me. =)

anyway, i really need this.. i'm up to so many stress that i forgot that back in my early days, i turn to sports (tiring myself..) when i feel frustrated. it usually helps me because i drain all my efforts in this sport and i end up relieved emotionally and sickly tired, which greatly helps because all i can think of is how tired i am..

day by day, i'm trying to use my time wisely in helping myself recover. and believe me, there is progress. although, there will always be instances that i still recall and wish i can still have it. but i owe myself peace because i believe i did the best i can..

there are always two roads to choose from whenever i attempt to make a decision. yeah, sounds weird right? it should be two roads/choices BEFORE making a decision.. but for my sake, i still need to choose AFTER i decide..

one is evil and one is angelic.. both of which still benefits me.. right now, i try to think for myself on what good will the outcome produce for me.

although, i shift regularly..

i'm still human! i can't change myself in just a snap!

still, i end up talking or dramatyzing by myself..

i don't know what i really want now.. although wanting is different from needing.. but the need is continually pushing me away..

crap.. i just want to get rid of this feeling..

Posted at 07:31 pm by barbie
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Tuesday, August 17, 2004
is there really light at the end of the road?


Posted at 07:40 pm by barbie
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Saturday, August 14, 2004
i pity myself

really.. the title says it all..

i already have no control of myself. it's like someone else is conrolling me - my every move, every tear, every expression.. and in just a snap everything will change..

just a while ago, i cried.. i cried because of frustration. you see it's been a long time since i cried all because, my life in the past week seems to run smoothly.. i would like to highlight the word seems coz that's what i really thought.

the past week seemed to be perfect. day by day, he's trying to grant this happiness that i've longing for.

... then i just woke up... it was all just a dream. i was in a world far from reality..

everything just came up to me just this afternoon. i'm not really sure what i'm doing with my life right now. you may see me as a happy-go-lucky person but deep inside is a person with a confused state of mind and heart. all i wanted is to be happy and that's what i'm trying to do. there are so many reasons to smile but there are more reasons to frown and cry.

i pity myself..

i cry and get frustrated but when i stop, i forget that i ever cried and continue this shitty life. it's the other way around. i have no control in my life. it's already life that is controlling me.

i've done the best that i can. please try to recognize my efforts. i'm so tired. i'm so weak. do you even care? am i your last resort?

are you still there? end this life now.. just take me with you..

 Waiting In Line                                                            Melting 

Posted at 03:41 pm by barbie
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Thursday, August 12, 2004
expectations

this is one damn day..

i studied really hard for my Math 17 third long exam, reviewing and scanning my notes for more than three times, answered my exam with "ease" although when i received the answer key of that exam, half of it is so far different from my answers.

lets just say i was confident and i expect that i could get at least a passing grade although i was still in the state of "windang" after my exam. but i guess that's far from happening now. i still question the answer key our prof gave us 'coz i think there are still room for errors.

generally speaking, it's hard to expect when in the end, you wouldn't get what you thought you'd get. i've had a lot of other expectations besides that math shit. i just want everything to go on smoothly.. but of course, i wanted the "smoothness" to be specific so i "planned" in my mind my every walk and move.

... not a single plus point higher than the "usual". in fact it was worse! when the irony is, i wanted everything to be perfect.

and this wasn't such a perfect day..

damn day..

Posted at 10:16 pm by barbie
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